Last night I had a series of weird dreams and when I woke up I thought about this place. Sometimes I feel like I'm the annoying type of funny. Most of the time when I try to carry out a conversation with someone at youth group my mind goes blank and I don't know how to keep the conversation alive. I despise the way I act in social situations. That I can be myself with and they can be their self. That I can do things with and go places with. Even though I have her in my life and we talk A LUUUUT through medias, I get sad that there isn't someone I have in real life. We've had arguments but we've gotten through them. I have an incredible friend who has been there for me when I needed her. I never would have thought that this user name on a comments section (someone who lives 800000000 gazillion miles away from me) would become my best friend. Eli (aka Sarina.) There would be a lot of people who would comment for a few days and then just leave. Freaking 12 and 13 year old stuff.Out of those girls I have only been able to keep touch with one. There were mainly 5 girls I would talk to, and I knew they were real because we would stupidly share each other's contact information. I used to talk in the sections of these comments a few years back.
